Inspired by Liz Gilberts fabulous Substack.
Dear Love, what would you have me know about fear?
Hello little love! It’s been an age since you’ve reached out to me…
The last time we were in conversation you had confided in me on a matter of the heart, you wrote me a letter asking for the truth, and when that truth came through (like a blazing arrow) you began to see my guidance as fear and shock, instead of love and protection. I was hoping you would see how I was holding you, and redirecting you from a path that was no longer for you… but my sweet, at that time you were only able to see what was being taken away from you. I know having things taken away from you is an old wound… but I am here to say, I will only ever guide you towards what is truly meant to be yours, for your highest good, and the good of all!
That is how committed I am to loving you.
So now we’ve got that out of the way, I’m so delighted you’ve reached out, in fact, I have been here all along… waiting, patiently for us to reconnect! I have so much to share with you and that brilliant mind of yours…
Darling, every time you step out of the madness that is the gigantic cacophony of incoming, overwhelming and oftentimes confusing information swirling around the collective, I cheer so hard! You are not meant to be running on adrenaline, fear and lack my love – though a familiar program you know so well, we have not come this far in life to be run by an outdated operating system. You my dear, are made for (and oh so deserving of) the awe inspiring pace of a slow and graceful life, of spaciousness, of love, and of a still and peaceful heart! You weren’t designed to buy into, nor to live by, this idea that more is more, or that constant productivity and chasing (money, love, looks or status) is your worth or value.
You are here to be just that, here. And here you are! Doesn’t it feel good? to simply be here in this quiet space, held in my loves warmth?!
Your greatest gifts come when you step out of the noise (especially the noise in your head) and find yourself in those moments of peace, like when you lie on the floor and stretch, staring at the roof, contemplating life… or when you take a big walk in nature, or read a long form piece of writing – it’s here is where I find I can access you the easiest!
That fear you find so frequently running you… the fear that brings you to panic and sends you outsourcing all your answers from others, aka all the money you spend on getting help to ‘fix yourself’… So much of that is a waste of your hard earned money my love. I know you know this, because I watch you when I whisper, “that’s not the answer!” and you sometimes listen and find prayer or take yourself for a walk instead, but so often I see you doubt yourself, spending unnecessary cash on advice you could better give yourself if you just had the patience to sit your pretty little butt down long enough to listen for the answers.
I’m always here, ready to help!
Society has taught you that you can have allot of things TODAY! But my dear, some things we are not meant to know or have today… some things we are meant to sleep on, and mull over and swirl around and sit with, and take time on. And some things, we are just not meant to ever know or have! Building fortitude to practice receptivity and patience to be in those liminal spaces of the unknown, will serve you well my sweet. You will wear it well and grow with discernment. It will bring you allot of what you are searching for, ironically, and most probably, much faster then when your fear driven self rolls up to receive those outsourced ‘fix me-ups!’
When you get sick – know you are in fear. When you over spend – know you are in fear. When you stand in the kitchen eating some random piece of food frantically – know you are in fear. When you need help TODAY – you are most certainly in fear. Please remember this: most of all, when you can’t wait – to have the conversation, to buy the thing, to see what’s next, for things to be revealed, you are stepping further away from love and wisdom, back into old fear.
Sometimes your fear can be mistaken for love…
I know you thought you had lost me for a time there, I know how easy it is to fall victim to ‘Is there even any god damn point in trying?!’ But I am here (and always have been) sometimes quietly, sometimes ferociously, but always, always, lovingly on your side!
Please know that sourcing love here, doesn’t mean losing love elsewhere.
I believe in you.
Love, Love! x
